"We See Broken God Sees Mended"

100:00:00,000 --> 00:00:07,000This is Jimmy Nanette and we are coming to you from the heart, the soul, the spirit,200:00:30,000 --> 00:00:35,400the center, the bulls eye of the Texas Hill Country where it is what we thought was,300:00:35,400 --> 00:00:38,000it started off as a beautiful day, did it not?400:00:38,000 --> 00:00:39,500No, it was foggy, remember?500:00:39,500 --> 00:00:40,500Wait, oh yeah it was.600:00:40,500 --> 00:00:41,500That was today.700:00:41,500 --> 00:00:43,400But then it got warm this afternoon, lots of sunshine.800:00:43,400 --> 00:00:45,400But it was foggy as we were going to church.900:00:45,400 --> 00:00:47,200It was really foggy.1000:00:47,200 --> 00:00:51,400We've actually had a very cool week in the Texas Hill Country, lots of rain which we1100:00:51,400 --> 00:00:52,400need.1200:00:52,400 --> 00:00:54,200I think winter and spring got mixed up.1300:00:54,200 --> 00:00:55,200Totally confused.1400:00:55,200 --> 00:00:59,200I mean like everything's green and coming alive and yet I'm looking out the window1500:00:59,200 --> 00:01:01,800right now, it looks like it could rain any second.1600:01:01,800 --> 00:01:02,800Exactly.1700:01:02,800 --> 00:01:04,800I mean we need the rain, that's great, thank you Jesus.1800:01:04,800 --> 00:01:11,800However, oh Chevy just fell out of his chair introducing Chevy in a very clumsy moment.1900:01:11,800 --> 00:01:13,800He literally fell.2000:01:13,800 --> 00:01:15,200He literally fell.2100:01:15,200 --> 00:01:16,800Are you alright there good buddy?2200:01:16,800 --> 00:01:18,800Poor baby, are you okay?2300:01:18,800 --> 00:01:21,800He's so unfazed by anything.2400:01:21,800 --> 00:01:23,800He's like looking me like, thank you for picking me up.2500:01:23,800 --> 00:01:27,800Our other dog that now lives with our daughter Faith, because Faith has her own apartment2600:01:27,800 --> 00:01:32,400now, she would be like traumatized for a day and a half if she just slipped out of her2700:01:32,400 --> 00:01:33,400chair.2800:01:33,400 --> 00:01:34,400She's very neurotic.2900:01:34,400 --> 00:01:35,400Chevy's like, oh who cares.3000:01:35,400 --> 00:01:36,400Chevy's like, yeah whatever, just pet me.3100:01:36,400 --> 00:01:38,600Make you back up in your lap.3200:01:38,600 --> 00:01:40,700So it's been really weird weather.3300:01:40,700 --> 00:01:42,200This last week is actually cool.3400:01:42,200 --> 00:01:47,320I mean we're wearing sweaters again and we're like, hey what happened to spring?3500:01:47,320 --> 00:01:48,400It was teasing us.3600:01:48,400 --> 00:01:49,400It really was.3700:01:49,400 --> 00:01:50,400I'm ready.3800:01:50,400 --> 00:01:51,400I've got spring fever I think.3900:01:51,400 --> 00:01:52,400I know, I do too.4000:01:52,400 --> 00:01:53,400I need some time off.4100:01:53,400 --> 00:01:56,400Can I have some time off?4200:01:56,400 --> 00:01:57,400Yeah, sure.4300:01:57,400 --> 00:01:58,400Go ahead, whatever.4400:01:58,400 --> 00:02:00,120You're the executive pastor.4500:02:00,120 --> 00:02:02,120You order yourself.4600:02:02,120 --> 00:02:05,000Last night I was just like, Lord it's time.4700:02:05,000 --> 00:02:07,480I need some down time.4800:02:07,480 --> 00:02:08,480This week.4900:02:08,480 --> 00:02:09,480Why are we tired?5000:02:09,480 --> 00:02:12,040Well this week has been, I mean holy week.5100:02:12,040 --> 00:02:13,400Getting ready for Easter.5200:02:13,400 --> 00:02:14,400Yeah.5300:02:14,400 --> 00:02:20,800Praying for not just the people to come into church, but the people to come to a saving5400:02:20,800 --> 00:02:22,480knowledge of Jesus Christ.5500:02:22,480 --> 00:02:23,480And so it's heavy.5600:02:23,480 --> 00:02:24,480It is.5700:02:24,480 --> 00:02:25,480It's emotional.5800:02:25,480 --> 00:02:28,880I heard someone say this is the Super Bowl.5900:02:28,880 --> 00:02:30,240The Super Bowl for Christians.6000:02:30,240 --> 00:02:33,080It's Holy Week and of course Easter weekend.6100:02:33,080 --> 00:02:35,720I'm like, yeah I don't really buy into the hype of that.6200:02:35,720 --> 00:02:39,560We have no Budweiser or Coors commercials happening in our church.6300:02:39,560 --> 00:02:42,280So it's not like to us, it's not hype.6400:02:42,280 --> 00:02:47,880It's more about every day's Easter, every day's Christmas when you're a follower of6500:02:47,880 --> 00:02:50,640Christ and you're engaged in an ongoing relationship.6600:02:50,640 --> 00:02:51,640Would you agree?6700:02:51,640 --> 00:02:52,640Right.6800:02:52,640 --> 00:02:59,520And for Easter, for churches, that's typically when you could double your attendance.6900:02:59,520 --> 00:03:02,240And you're not wanting to double so that you'll have more people.7000:03:02,240 --> 00:03:03,960At least we aren't.7100:03:03,960 --> 00:03:09,920I want people that are on fire for God or want to grow in their relationship with God.7200:03:09,920 --> 00:03:14,040And so I could care less how many people we have on an Easter Sunday.7300:03:14,040 --> 00:03:16,160The next Sunday could be a lot lower.7400:03:16,160 --> 00:03:22,340I want to see people growing in their faith or coming to know Him for the first time.7500:03:22,340 --> 00:03:24,680That is so important.7600:03:24,680 --> 00:03:26,720So much more important than the numbers you have.7700:03:26,720 --> 00:03:27,720Right.7800:03:27,720 --> 00:03:28,720We're very thankful.7900:03:28,720 --> 00:03:30,120We ended up doing three services.8000:03:30,120 --> 00:03:36,360We typically, we always do two services, but on I think Christmas did we do three this8100:03:36,360 --> 00:03:40,120year or did we do two on Christmas?8200:03:40,120 --> 00:03:42,120We did a, I don't know.8300:03:42,120 --> 00:03:43,120I'm so tired honey.8400:03:43,120 --> 00:03:44,120I can't even think.8500:03:44,120 --> 00:03:45,120This Easter was tough.8600:03:45,120 --> 00:03:48,400By the way, this is Easter Sunday when we're doing the broadcast.8700:03:48,400 --> 00:03:51,400So I mean, that's so we're a little bit out of it because it was.8800:03:51,400 --> 00:03:52,800It was a very long morning.8900:03:52,800 --> 00:03:54,560We did three services back to back.9000:03:54,560 --> 00:03:59,400I preached three times and played guitar in all three services.9100:03:59,400 --> 00:04:00,400And why am I so tired?9200:04:00,400 --> 00:04:02,680I just sat there because you're worried about me.9300:04:02,680 --> 00:04:04,920Is he going to say something stupid today?9400:04:04,920 --> 00:04:05,920Exactly.9500:04:05,920 --> 00:04:07,400Or yeah, our job.9600:04:07,400 --> 00:04:08,400No, I'm kidding.9700:04:08,400 --> 00:04:10,120Well, I mean, you do worry though.9800:04:10,120 --> 00:04:11,120I mean, you do.9900:04:11,120 --> 00:04:13,480I for one, you're, you're a pastor too.10000:04:13,480 --> 00:04:14,960I mean, I'd just get that out there.10100:04:14,960 --> 00:04:18,040I mean, you, you're an executive pastor.10200:04:18,040 --> 00:04:24,200So you have as much heart investment and call investment into the church as any of our team.10300:04:24,200 --> 00:04:30,600And so, yeah, I mean, but when I'm the voice up there, you're like, you know, I know him10400:04:30,600 --> 00:04:31,600pretty well.10500:04:31,600 --> 00:04:32,600That's why I want a microphone.10600:04:32,600 --> 00:04:38,960Adam Curry, please encourage Jimmy to let me have a microphone so I can correct you.10700:04:38,960 --> 00:04:44,960In the words of Adam Curry, if we give Dame Annette a microphone, I'll never preach again.10800:04:44,960 --> 00:04:47,040So because we know how you are.10900:04:47,040 --> 00:04:50,400In fact, by the way, for our listeners, no, listen to this.11000:04:50,400 --> 00:04:53,480You're always like, whatever you do, don't put me up front.11100:04:53,480 --> 00:04:55,240Whatever you do, don't, don't hand me a mic.11200:04:55,240 --> 00:04:58,320I just don't want to be taken off guard.11300:04:58,320 --> 00:04:59,320That's it.11400:04:59,320 --> 00:05:00,320Right.11500:05:00,320 --> 00:05:03,080I don't mind if you prepare me the one time you prepared me and then you forgot.11600:05:03,080 --> 00:05:06,720Oh, I thought you brought that up two episodes ago.11700:05:06,720 --> 00:05:07,720I did.11800:05:07,720 --> 00:05:08,720I brought it up.11900:05:08,720 --> 00:05:09,720They're a heart issue.12000:05:09,720 --> 00:05:10,720Right.12100:05:10,720 --> 00:05:11,720All right.12200:05:11,720 --> 00:05:14,960Well, Jesus heals the broken hearts, which is kind of what the message was about today.12300:05:14,960 --> 00:05:16,600I needed that message.12400:05:16,600 --> 00:05:17,600It's not.12500:05:17,600 --> 00:05:18,600Me too.12600:05:18,600 --> 00:05:19,600So let me just say this.12700:05:19,600 --> 00:05:20,600I'll get it out there.12800:05:20,600 --> 00:05:21,600Yesterday.12900:05:21,600 --> 00:05:22,600That's what we're here for.13000:05:22,600 --> 00:05:23,600We had a wonderful time with Adam and Tina.13100:05:23,600 --> 00:05:25,640We went and saw the movie, His Only Son.13200:05:25,640 --> 00:05:27,280Yes, which was good.13300:05:27,280 --> 00:05:28,280Not great, but it was good.13400:05:28,280 --> 00:05:29,280But it was good.13500:05:29,280 --> 00:05:31,600And we want to support those who are doing Christian movies.13600:05:31,600 --> 00:05:33,160We want to invest in them.13700:05:33,160 --> 00:05:34,160Because we want more.13800:05:34,160 --> 00:05:35,160Yes, absolutely.13900:05:35,160 --> 00:05:42,400And the more funds that they receive, the better actors and so forth they'll have.14000:05:42,400 --> 00:05:44,720Well, we went and we had a great time with them.14100:05:44,720 --> 00:05:45,720It was lovely.14200:05:45,720 --> 00:05:47,160We had dinner with them.14300:05:47,160 --> 00:05:49,920They came over for drinks and dessert.14400:05:49,920 --> 00:05:51,240We had dessert already.14500:05:51,240 --> 00:05:52,240And then they leave.14600:05:52,240 --> 00:05:53,460We had some vino.14700:05:53,460 --> 00:05:54,460We did.14800:05:54,460 --> 00:05:55,460It was good.14900:05:55,460 --> 00:05:56,460Well, yes, it was good.15000:05:56,460 --> 00:05:57,460Grape Creek.15100:05:57,460 --> 00:05:58,460Yes.15200:05:58,460 --> 00:06:02,960But as soon as I left, I had a meltdown.15300:06:02,960 --> 00:06:03,960I know.15400:06:03,960 --> 00:06:07,080I saw it on your face.15500:06:07,080 --> 00:06:09,360And I couldn't understand what was going on.15600:06:09,360 --> 00:06:12,960But I just started to feel, you know, when we were talking a few weeks ago, a couple15700:06:12,960 --> 00:06:18,720weeks ago about what plays in your mind, the records that play.15800:06:18,720 --> 00:06:19,720The tapes.15900:06:19,720 --> 00:06:20,720The tapes.16000:06:20,720 --> 00:06:21,720The records.16100:06:21,720 --> 00:06:22,720I'm aging myself.16200:06:22,720 --> 00:06:28,480But the tapes, the DVDs or whatever you want to say that play in your mind.16300:06:28,480 --> 00:06:32,120And that started going through my mind so bad.16400:06:32,120 --> 00:06:35,000And I mean, it was bad.16500:06:35,000 --> 00:06:39,160I was crying.16600:06:39,160 --> 00:06:42,920All these things were coming out of my mouth that, well, I don't know if I actually saw16700:06:42,920 --> 00:06:43,920it.16800:06:43,920 --> 00:06:44,920More in your mind.16900:06:44,920 --> 00:06:45,920More in my mind.17000:06:45,920 --> 00:06:46,920Because you weren't saying anything out loud.17100:06:46,920 --> 00:06:47,920You asked me what was wrong.17200:06:47,920 --> 00:06:50,160And I just briefly shared because I didn't want to.17300:06:50,160 --> 00:06:51,440Because husbands know.17400:06:51,440 --> 00:06:52,440Right.17500:06:52,440 --> 00:06:53,440But you didn't know fully.17600:06:53,440 --> 00:06:56,600No, I didn't know what was going on.17700:06:56,600 --> 00:06:57,600Something was buzzing in your head.17800:06:57,600 --> 00:06:58,720And I knew that.17900:06:58,720 --> 00:06:59,720It was.18000:06:59,720 --> 00:07:05,760I think what's hard for me is every, and I hate saying this because it sounds like,18100:07:05,760 --> 00:07:08,000well, then now it's going to happen every year.18200:07:08,000 --> 00:07:15,960But every year in the past, I've had depression try to hit me around my birthday.18300:07:15,960 --> 00:07:16,960Right.18400:07:16,960 --> 00:07:21,240I think it has to do with something that happened with my ex-husband back in the day.18500:07:21,240 --> 00:07:22,760But I can't pinpoint it.18600:07:22,760 --> 00:07:27,760All I know is the aging process is very hard on me.18700:07:27,760 --> 00:07:32,760And I just turn that age that I don't even want to say.18800:07:32,760 --> 00:07:33,880I wish I had.18900:07:33,880 --> 00:07:34,880It's hard.19000:07:34,880 --> 00:07:35,880Well, I'll keep it to myself.19100:07:35,880 --> 00:07:36,880OK.19200:07:36,880 --> 00:07:37,880Keep it to yourself.19300:07:37,880 --> 00:07:38,880I'm not going to say it.19400:07:38,880 --> 00:07:39,880I'm not going to say it.19500:07:39,880 --> 00:07:40,880I'm going to be nice.19600:07:40,880 --> 00:07:41,880It's OK.19700:07:41,880 --> 00:07:42,880I'm in a good mood.19800:07:42,880 --> 00:07:47,240I'm having a hard time.19900:07:47,240 --> 00:07:50,560And so it hit me last night after they left.20000:07:50,560 --> 00:07:52,040And I laid in bed.20100:07:52,040 --> 00:07:55,120And I literally, I could have had a cry fest.20200:07:55,120 --> 00:07:56,880I started to cry.20300:07:56,880 --> 00:07:57,880I heard it.20400:07:57,880 --> 00:07:59,040I could tell.20500:07:59,040 --> 00:08:00,040And I decided.20600:08:00,040 --> 00:08:01,040I was eavesdropping.20700:08:01,040 --> 00:08:02,040I know.20800:08:02,040 --> 00:08:09,320But there was one thing I've never done ever when this has happened.20900:08:09,320 --> 00:08:12,320I was laying down in bed when it happened.21000:08:12,320 --> 00:08:14,720And I got the version Bible out.21100:08:14,720 --> 00:08:19,280And I just started reading scripture after scripture after scripture.21200:08:19,280 --> 00:08:23,520Because I really felt like, and what I did was I took one of my devotions.21300:08:23,520 --> 00:08:25,320I'm doing the devotion.21400:08:25,320 --> 00:08:26,320What's it called?21500:08:26,320 --> 00:08:27,320Let's see.21600:08:27,320 --> 00:08:28,320You're doing several.21700:08:28,320 --> 00:08:29,320Well, I am.21800:08:29,320 --> 00:08:34,080But this one particular this week is called Easter Explained.21900:08:34,080 --> 00:08:37,640And it's eight day guide to celebrating the Holy Week.22000:08:37,640 --> 00:08:40,680So I went through.22100:08:40,680 --> 00:08:42,120I'm really shocked that I did this.22200:08:42,120 --> 00:08:44,960I'm really proud of myself that I did this.22300:08:44,960 --> 00:08:50,480But I went through every scripture for six days, which was a lot.22400:08:50,480 --> 00:08:54,420I mean, there were some that was a whole chapters were.22500:08:54,420 --> 00:09:00,400And so for about an hour, I made myself read every scripture because you can't cry and22600:09:00,400 --> 00:09:01,400read at the same time.22700:09:01,400 --> 00:09:02,920I kept looking over at you.22800:09:02,920 --> 00:09:03,920So this is a guy.22900:09:03,920 --> 00:09:04,920This is a husband wife thing.23000:09:04,920 --> 00:09:07,640And those of you that are married, get this.23100:09:07,640 --> 00:09:11,000You always know when your spouse is struggling, you know, there's something going on.23200:09:11,000 --> 00:09:12,000They won't talk about it.23300:09:12,000 --> 00:09:14,960Of course, as a dude, I'm like, what I do, what I do.23400:09:14,960 --> 00:09:17,120And I said, this doesn't have anything to do with you.23500:09:17,120 --> 00:09:19,280Independent Jimmy's like, did I do something?23600:09:19,280 --> 00:09:20,280Did I mess up?23700:09:20,280 --> 00:09:21,280Did I not say something?23800:09:21,280 --> 00:09:22,280Did I say something?23900:09:22,280 --> 00:09:23,280Did I?24000:09:23,280 --> 00:09:25,560And so that's so me centric.24100:09:25,560 --> 00:09:29,240So codependent, very pathetic.24200:09:29,240 --> 00:09:30,960But it's there's a flip side of that.24300:09:30,960 --> 00:09:34,560And really is because I genuinely care about what's going on in your heart and in your24400:09:34,560 --> 00:09:35,560mind.24500:09:35,560 --> 00:09:36,560It's what a husband does.24600:09:36,560 --> 00:09:37,560We care.24700:09:37,560 --> 00:09:39,720So as you're over there, I was like, are you okay?24800:09:39,720 --> 00:09:40,720What are you reading?24900:09:40,720 --> 00:09:43,640Because you were man, whatever you're reading, you were into.25000:09:43,640 --> 00:09:46,120So I was because scripture was a Bible.25100:09:46,120 --> 00:09:50,360And I couldn't tell you what I was reading because I literally was reading through different25200:09:50,360 --> 00:09:52,040chapters, different books.25300:09:52,040 --> 00:09:58,120And I realized when I started reading, I was really crying.25400:09:58,120 --> 00:10:04,240But as I started going through the scriptures, after a few minutes, I couldn't cry anymore.25500:10:04,240 --> 00:10:06,320All I could do is read.25600:10:06,320 --> 00:10:12,640And I was reading so much about what happened with Jesus on the holy at the holy week.25700:10:12,640 --> 00:10:21,760And my I went from this feeling sorry for myself to compassion for Jesus.25800:10:21,760 --> 00:10:26,040And I totally turned I did not go to sleep crying like I have in the past.25900:10:26,040 --> 00:10:28,080So all right, there's a couple of things there.26000:10:28,080 --> 00:10:31,520Because when you bring that up, that just my mind just goes off in several things.26100:10:31,520 --> 00:10:37,440But first of all, to the ladies that are listening to the podcast, I want you can you address26200:10:37,440 --> 00:10:40,120them because they get what you're saying?26300:10:40,120 --> 00:10:44,400They've I mean, we go through these emotions.26400:10:44,400 --> 00:10:45,400You know, it's triggered.26500:10:45,400 --> 00:10:46,400They do.26600:10:46,400 --> 00:10:48,480We have triggers for some reason my birthday.26700:10:48,480 --> 00:10:50,200But you know what was interesting?26800:10:50,200 --> 00:10:52,440My birthday was a week ago.26900:10:52,440 --> 00:10:55,320And usually it's on my birthday or the week before.27000:10:55,320 --> 00:10:57,320This time it was a week after.27100:10:57,320 --> 00:10:59,040So I thought we were through that.27200:10:59,040 --> 00:11:00,040I did too.27300:11:00,040 --> 00:11:01,040We made it.27400:11:01,040 --> 00:11:05,920And when those recordings started to play crazy, it's not crazy.27500:11:05,920 --> 00:11:07,400It's well, it's the enemy.27600:11:07,400 --> 00:11:14,200I think you get around people like Adam and Tina, who I just think are the best, literally27700:11:14,200 --> 00:11:16,280the best people I've ever met in my life.27800:11:16,280 --> 00:11:19,320I had never met anybody like them.27900:11:19,320 --> 00:11:22,360And they're beautiful and they're tall and they're gorgeous.28000:11:22,360 --> 00:11:23,360So much Adam.28100:11:23,360 --> 00:11:24,360Tina is pretty.28200:11:24,360 --> 00:11:25,360Sorry, Adam.28300:11:25,360 --> 00:11:29,360I had to throw a shot in there, brother.28400:11:29,360 --> 00:11:32,840I literally just I think I just went inward.28500:11:32,840 --> 00:11:37,680You know, I went into a bad place like, well, you'll never, you know, amount to anything.28600:11:37,680 --> 00:11:39,440You won't you don't look like them.28700:11:39,440 --> 00:11:41,680You'll never, you know, you don't have to.28800:11:41,680 --> 00:11:42,680Are you kidding?28900:11:42,680 --> 00:11:43,680I know.29000:11:43,680 --> 00:11:44,680Can you believe that?29100:11:44,680 --> 00:11:45,680I'm looking at you across the desk.29200:11:45,680 --> 00:11:46,680Oh, my gosh.29300:11:46,680 --> 00:11:47,680Stop.29400:11:47,680 --> 00:11:48,680But it.29500:11:48,680 --> 00:11:49,680Wow.29600:11:49,680 --> 00:11:54,640I think the enemy just loves to play those tapes that are so I mean, we're talking from29700:11:54,640 --> 00:11:57,520years and years in the past.29800:11:57,520 --> 00:12:01,400Nothing that has happened in in the present.29900:12:01,400 --> 00:12:02,920It's all from the past.30000:12:02,920 --> 00:12:06,040OK, but this is what I love, Jimmy.30100:12:06,040 --> 00:12:07,720So I share with you last night.30200:12:07,720 --> 00:12:09,000Yes, I'm having a hard time.30300:12:09,000 --> 00:12:11,920I'm having a woman moment.30400:12:11,920 --> 00:12:15,560I feel this, this, this.30500:12:15,560 --> 00:12:16,560Get in the word.30600:12:16,560 --> 00:12:17,560But you didn't say all that.30700:12:17,560 --> 00:12:18,560No.30800:12:18,560 --> 00:12:19,560I did say a little bit.30900:12:19,560 --> 00:12:20,560You left me guessing.31000:12:20,560 --> 00:12:21,560I did say a little bit.31100:12:21,560 --> 00:12:22,560I get it.31200:12:22,560 --> 00:12:24,760I didn't need to say much because I literally didn't want it out in the air.31300:12:24,760 --> 00:12:26,200The dude would like to hear more.31400:12:26,200 --> 00:12:27,200But that's OK.31500:12:27,200 --> 00:12:28,200No, seriously.31600:12:28,200 --> 00:12:29,200I appreciate it.31700:12:29,200 --> 00:12:30,200Also, I didn't want to continue crying.31800:12:30,200 --> 00:12:31,720I knew I'd be all puffy.31900:12:31,720 --> 00:12:32,920I'd be tired this morning.32000:12:32,920 --> 00:12:33,920I had a long day.32100:12:33,920 --> 00:12:35,600I know it's a woman thing.32200:12:35,600 --> 00:12:43,360So but, you know, I get up, I go to church and I'm thinking, OK, I'm good.32300:12:43,360 --> 00:12:45,240At least I got the word in me.32400:12:45,240 --> 00:12:46,820I feel good.32500:12:46,820 --> 00:12:51,800And then you switched the sermon and it was for me.32600:12:51,800 --> 00:12:53,080And you didn't tell me.32700:12:53,080 --> 00:12:59,160You told me and you mentioned to Adam and Tina that you totally switched gears, that32800:12:59,160 --> 00:13:04,240on Saturday morning you woke up at 4, 430 in the morning and you felt like the Lord told32900:13:04,240 --> 00:13:07,200you don't preach this, preach this.33000:13:07,200 --> 00:13:08,480You totally changed it.33100:13:08,480 --> 00:13:12,800And I asked you when we were with Tina and Adam and you said, I'm not telling you, you33200:13:12,800 --> 00:13:14,680need to wait till tomorrow.33300:13:14,680 --> 00:13:16,320I couldn't believe it.33400:13:16,320 --> 00:13:25,520When you preached the message on, we see our brokenness, God sees our mending.33500:13:25,520 --> 00:13:27,920Yeah, it's a line from a song.33600:13:27,920 --> 00:13:30,960We see broken, God sees mended.33700:13:30,960 --> 00:13:34,200I literally lost it inside.33800:13:34,200 --> 00:13:35,200That's wild.33900:13:35,200 --> 00:13:36,280I just was like.34000:13:36,280 --> 00:13:38,480Because I literally did not know what was going on.34100:13:38,480 --> 00:13:41,520No, because it was last night and what happened was the night before.34200:13:41,520 --> 00:13:43,560You wouldn't talk about it because you didn't want to mess up.34300:13:43,560 --> 00:13:44,560No, I wanted you to be.34400:13:44,560 --> 00:13:48,760I was getting ready to preach and you were being gentle.34500:13:48,760 --> 00:13:52,720I still knew you were a little bit off, but you seemed better.34600:13:52,720 --> 00:13:57,080But I had no idea what you were struggling with in your heart.34700:13:57,080 --> 00:14:02,600The Lord woke me up and I say the Lord because I don't normally wake up early.34800:14:02,600 --> 00:14:07,520Well, you don't wake up to change a message that you had prepared for weeks.34900:14:07,520 --> 00:14:08,520I mean literally weeks.35000:14:08,520 --> 00:14:13,080I've been working on this, doing some deep dive study about the crucifixion.35100:14:13,080 --> 00:14:19,200I had some great Lee Strobel quotes about the crucifixion and the reality of it.35200:14:19,200 --> 00:14:23,840I wanted it to be a full on Easter while it's celebrate.35300:14:23,840 --> 00:14:25,880We had been seeing movies about Easter.35400:14:25,880 --> 00:14:28,400We watched Risen, we watched His Only Son.35500:14:28,400 --> 00:14:31,960There was another one, we watched The Thieves on the Cross with Jonathan Rumi.35600:14:31,960 --> 00:14:35,200So we had watched a bunch of movies that really fed into you.35700:14:35,200 --> 00:14:36,200Really want to talk about the crucifixion.35800:14:36,200 --> 00:14:38,360And some documentaries that were just amazing.35900:14:38,360 --> 00:14:39,360And the resurrection.36000:14:39,360 --> 00:14:44,680We were doing a lot of study to prepare for this Sunday and then all of a sudden God says,36100:14:44,680 --> 00:14:46,800nope, I don't even want you to preach on that.36200:14:46,800 --> 00:14:47,800I was wrestling.36300:14:47,800 --> 00:14:50,760When I went to bed on Friday night, I was wrestling with it.36400:14:50,760 --> 00:14:56,120I'm really glad now that you didn't tell me because I think my mouth was probably open36500:14:56,120 --> 00:14:58,280the whole time you were preaching first service.36600:14:58,280 --> 00:15:00,560Of course, I heard it first, second and third service.36700:15:00,560 --> 00:15:01,560Three times.36800:15:01,560 --> 00:15:03,240Maybe it takes that much for me to get it.36900:15:03,240 --> 00:15:05,120Three times or what do they say?37000:15:05,120 --> 00:15:06,120Is it charm?37100:15:06,120 --> 00:15:12,320But I literally felt like you said God told me to do this and this is for someone out37200:15:12,320 --> 00:15:15,320there and I thought, wow, for your own wife?37300:15:15,320 --> 00:15:16,600Really?37400:15:16,600 --> 00:15:20,840Because I literally needed to hear what you said.37500:15:20,840 --> 00:15:28,080Even though I know it intuitively, there's just something about hearing it in that setting.37600:15:28,080 --> 00:15:38,120There's just areas that we believe that God has healed but sometimes there's just a little37700:15:38,120 --> 00:15:40,960crack, a little open door that happens.37800:15:40,960 --> 00:15:43,280I call that residue.37900:15:43,280 --> 00:15:47,800The issue's not there in your face all the time like it was in the past because you've38000:15:47,800 --> 00:15:48,800gotten healed.38100:15:48,800 --> 00:15:50,920But there's still scars.38200:15:50,920 --> 00:15:51,920There's still residue.38300:15:51,920 --> 00:15:56,600I had a scar on the bottom of my arm where I got cut badly.38400:15:56,600 --> 00:16:01,080And for years, even though the scar healed over, if I ever accidentally bumped that spot38500:16:01,080 --> 00:16:07,320like on the edge of a desk or anything, I'd just put my arm down on the table ronk, it38600:16:07,320 --> 00:16:09,040would remind me that there was a wound.38700:16:09,040 --> 00:16:10,040It would bleed again.38800:16:10,040 --> 00:16:11,040It wouldn't bleed.38900:16:11,040 --> 00:16:12,040It was just hurt.39000:16:12,040 --> 00:16:13,040Sometimes.39100:16:13,040 --> 00:16:14,040No, no, no.39200:16:14,040 --> 00:16:15,040This is the one that was completely healed over.39300:16:15,040 --> 00:16:16,040Not the scar.39400:16:16,040 --> 00:16:17,040It was gone.39500:16:17,040 --> 00:16:18,040It was just a scar.39600:16:18,040 --> 00:16:19,040But it was sensitive.39700:16:19,040 --> 00:16:20,040Now, it's not anymore.39800:16:20,040 --> 00:16:22,840All these years, low these many years, it's not now.39900:16:22,840 --> 00:16:27,240But it reminded me and it was like, I'm still here.40000:16:27,240 --> 00:16:32,640And I think sometimes some of the things that we get healed from spiritually and emotionally,40100:16:32,640 --> 00:16:34,160you bump the wrong thing.40200:16:34,160 --> 00:16:35,520That's like a trigger.40300:16:35,520 --> 00:16:37,720And it reminds you, wait, I'm still here.40400:16:37,720 --> 00:16:41,600And you're like, well, you're still here, but you're not as strong as you used to be.40500:16:41,600 --> 00:16:43,480And I'm not who I used to be.40600:16:43,480 --> 00:16:45,400So I'm beginning to heal.40700:16:45,400 --> 00:16:46,400It is a process.40800:16:46,400 --> 00:16:51,080Wouldn't you love it if God just, we prayed, snap our fingers.40900:16:51,080 --> 00:16:52,680Sorry, I got Chevy all.41000:16:52,680 --> 00:16:54,400When I snap my fingers, the signal for Chevy.41100:16:54,400 --> 00:16:56,400So he just jumps up like, okay, let's go.41200:16:56,400 --> 00:16:58,000Where are we going?41300:16:58,000 --> 00:17:03,880But anyway, wouldn't it be great if when we prayed and we said, Lord, we need you to heal41400:17:03,880 --> 00:17:10,600this broken piece in my life or this memory or this trauma, wouldn't it be cool in a perfect41500:17:10,600 --> 00:17:17,360world if God just snapped his fingers and we were instantly healed and never felt another41600:17:17,360 --> 00:17:21,680never felt a trigger or residue or echo of the past.41700:17:21,680 --> 00:17:24,800But for those of you listening, I understand.41800:17:24,800 --> 00:17:32,180Well, I think, you know, Paul had a thorn in his flesh that he had to live with.41900:17:32,180 --> 00:17:36,440And I almost feel like this is the thorn in my flesh that I have to overcome though.42000:17:36,440 --> 00:17:46,200I can't allow it to take root in my life and render me unable, you know, helpless because42100:17:46,200 --> 00:17:47,360it's it.42200:17:47,360 --> 00:17:48,600This is serious.42300:17:48,600 --> 00:17:54,200It really is serious when it gets to the point to where you just, you know, you're like,42400:17:54,200 --> 00:18:00,800Lord, you really need to intervene because I don't know how much more I can take.42500:18:00,800 --> 00:18:02,080So I have a verse for that.42600:18:02,080 --> 00:18:03,080Okay.42700:18:03,080 --> 00:18:04,680I read this verse this morning in the sermon.42800:18:04,680 --> 00:18:06,720And again, this was a late edition.42900:18:06,720 --> 00:18:08,640This is an edition this morning.43000:18:08,640 --> 00:18:13,800No late late last night, you'd finally fell asleep and my mind was still pinging because43100:18:13,800 --> 00:18:17,960I knew this wasn't fully developed because God just gave it to me hot off the press.43200:18:17,960 --> 00:18:22,720So my mind was a little bit like going, uh, I hope I know where I'm going with this because43300:18:22,720 --> 00:18:24,720I really felt led by the Lord to go.43400:18:24,720 --> 00:18:26,640And this first came to my mind.43500:18:26,640 --> 00:18:31,200Listen to this in second Corinthians 12 nine, Paul is talking about what you just brought43600:18:31,200 --> 00:18:33,560up the thorn in the flesh.43700:18:33,560 --> 00:18:35,760And he's saying, I want to do this, but then I do that.43800:18:35,760 --> 00:18:36,760He's going back and forth.43900:18:36,760 --> 00:18:40,240Well, that was actually Romans, but it's still the same spirit of what he's talking about.44000:18:40,240 --> 00:18:41,240He's wrestling.44100:18:41,240 --> 00:18:42,480Listen to what he says.44200:18:42,480 --> 00:18:44,600And this is Paul speaking.44300:18:44,600 --> 00:18:51,320He says, but he, God said to me, my grace is sufficient for you or my grace is enough44400:18:51,320 --> 00:18:56,120for you for my power is made perfect in weakness.44500:18:56,120 --> 00:18:58,640Therefore, this is Paul again.44600:18:58,640 --> 00:19:05,480I will boast all the more gladly about my weakness so that Christ's power may rest on44700:19:05,480 --> 00:19:06,480me.44800:19:06,480 --> 00:19:07,480Whoa.44900:19:07,480 --> 00:19:13,800He's in other words, when the Lord just didn't snap his fingers and remove the thorn and45000:19:13,800 --> 00:19:15,760we don't even know what the thorn was.45100:19:15,760 --> 00:19:17,320The Bible never clarifies.45200:19:17,320 --> 00:19:23,600I think that's genius because it's almost like insert, insert your thorn in this blank,45300:19:23,600 --> 00:19:24,600right?45400:19:24,600 --> 00:19:26,040Because everybody has something different they're dealing with.45500:19:26,040 --> 00:19:29,080We all have brokenness in our lives.45600:19:29,080 --> 00:19:31,720And so I love that.45700:19:31,720 --> 00:19:34,520The Lord said to Paul, my grace is sufficient for you.45800:19:34,520 --> 00:19:36,120My power is made perfect.45900:19:36,120 --> 00:19:41,160The word perfect there means whole, complete or total.46000:19:41,160 --> 00:19:45,160My power is made perfect, whole, complete, total in weakness.46100:19:45,160 --> 00:19:52,000It's like, so God shows off and shows out through Paul's weaknesses, which is speaking46200:19:52,000 --> 00:19:53,840to us as well.46300:19:53,840 --> 00:19:59,400So yeah, it's like you have to wrestle through this thing.46400:19:59,400 --> 00:20:02,160You have to walk through the valley of the shadow.46500:20:02,160 --> 00:20:05,920And I think people, you keep walking, people look at pastors and think, oh, well, y'all46600:20:05,920 --> 00:20:14,760have got it all together, you know the word, you know how to handle life in a better manner.46700:20:14,760 --> 00:20:18,480You don't have a care in the world and they don't understand.46800:20:18,480 --> 00:20:19,480Sometimes it's worse.46900:20:19,480 --> 00:20:20,800Introduce me to these said pastors.47000:20:20,800 --> 00:20:22,280I would love to meet them.47100:20:22,280 --> 00:20:23,280Exactly.47200:20:23,280 --> 00:20:26,640Well, we've heard of some of those who've actually talked about that in the pulpit,47300:20:26,640 --> 00:20:28,520but we know they're not perfect.47400:20:28,520 --> 00:20:30,520We know that's not true.47500:20:30,520 --> 00:20:32,880But man, it's hard.47600:20:32,880 --> 00:20:41,600I think that the more ground we take from the enemy, the more he pushes us.47700:20:41,600 --> 00:20:42,600Right.47800:20:42,600 --> 00:20:43,600You know what I'm saying?47900:20:43,600 --> 00:20:44,600Well, he's trying to keep a hold.48000:20:44,600 --> 00:20:45,600He doesn't want to let go.48100:20:45,600 --> 00:20:46,600He is.48200:20:46,600 --> 00:20:47,600It's a stronghold.48300:20:47,600 --> 00:20:48,600Stronghold.48400:20:48,600 --> 00:20:50,800And he doesn't want to let go.48500:20:50,800 --> 00:20:55,480And his job is to kill, steal, and destroy.48600:20:55,480 --> 00:21:00,800And he might not can kill, steal, and destroy my body, but he can kill, steal, destroy my48700:21:00,800 --> 00:21:04,480mind, my thoughts, my heart.48800:21:04,480 --> 00:21:08,200I'm telling you, it's a battle.48900:21:08,200 --> 00:21:11,720Well, first of all, yes, let's acknowledge it is a war.49000:21:11,720 --> 00:21:12,840It's a fight.49100:21:12,840 --> 00:21:17,800Everybody listening to the show right now can identify with having these mind wars.49200:21:17,800 --> 00:21:20,000We brought that up a couple of weeks in a row because it is.49300:21:20,000 --> 00:21:22,600At the battlefield, the mind's real.49400:21:22,600 --> 00:21:24,480And in fact, you ordered that Bible from Joyce Meyer.49500:21:24,480 --> 00:21:25,480It's great.49600:21:25,480 --> 00:21:27,800I've been thumbing through it and looking at all the highlights.49700:21:27,800 --> 00:21:29,080Fantastic.49800:21:29,080 --> 00:21:30,200So it's real for us.49900:21:30,200 --> 00:21:33,520This battle, this war.50000:21:33,520 --> 00:21:35,560So let's acknowledge that it's real.50100:21:35,560 --> 00:21:39,840So in order to heal it, I love what Tommy Hayes says, in order to heal it, you need50200:21:39,840 --> 00:21:40,840to reveal it.50300:21:40,840 --> 00:21:43,800So let's reveal that and acknowledge.50400:21:43,800 --> 00:21:44,800It is what it is.50500:21:44,800 --> 00:21:47,560However, we don't have to stay stuck in that.50600:21:47,560 --> 00:21:52,240So let's get on to, because I want to help those that are listening, because we know50700:21:52,240 --> 00:21:56,980what to do, even though sometimes in the middle of it, you don't want to do it.50800:21:56,980 --> 00:21:57,980But what did you do?50900:21:57,980 --> 00:21:58,980You mentioned it a minute ago.51000:21:58,980 --> 00:22:02,400I got in the scriptures and I just read and read and read.51100:22:02,400 --> 00:22:10,280And I found it interesting that the more I read, I was reading a lot of Psalms of what51200:22:10,280 --> 00:22:15,800David was going through when Saul was after him and was wanting to kill him and destroy51300:22:15,800 --> 00:22:16,800him.51400:22:16,800 --> 00:22:17,800I didn't know what you were reading.51500:22:17,800 --> 00:22:18,800You didn't tell me.51600:22:18,800 --> 00:22:19,800Well, that was part of the devotion.51700:22:19,800 --> 00:22:26,280And I'm sitting there thinking, here I am, upset about aging.51800:22:26,280 --> 00:22:27,880Hello.51900:22:27,880 --> 00:22:33,420Not looking the way I did when I was 30, not feeling the way I did when I was 30, not feeling52000:22:33,420 --> 00:22:36,300attractive, all these things.52100:22:36,300 --> 00:22:41,480And he's running for his life because a king wants to kill him.52200:22:41,480 --> 00:22:42,480I literally...52300:22:42,480 --> 00:22:43,480Out of jealousy.52400:22:43,480 --> 00:22:44,480Yes.52500:22:44,480 --> 00:22:48,800And I just sat there and I was just, how ridiculous is this?52600:22:48,800 --> 00:22:53,000Literally, I literally felt the Lord say, do you not see how stupid this is?52700:22:53,000 --> 00:22:54,000Wow.52800:22:54,000 --> 00:23:00,200I don't see how stupid, but those thoughts are not for me because I see you as a masterpiece.52900:23:00,200 --> 00:23:01,200A masterpiece.53000:23:01,200 --> 00:23:02,200Come on, girl.53100:23:02,200 --> 00:23:07,360And so if he sees me as that, why can't I see that?53200:23:07,360 --> 00:23:09,440I was talking with Tina.53300:23:09,440 --> 00:23:12,000We've talked quite a lot about body dysmorphia.53400:23:12,000 --> 00:23:13,760So common.53500:23:13,760 --> 00:23:14,760We both.53600:23:14,760 --> 00:23:15,760So common.53700:23:15,760 --> 00:23:17,840You've told me for years I had that issue.53800:23:17,840 --> 00:23:19,760I didn't know there was a word for it.53900:23:19,760 --> 00:23:20,760Yes, dysmorphia.54000:23:20,760 --> 00:23:25,760And then Tina, as we have gotten to know each other, we've talked about it quite a bit,54100:23:25,760 --> 00:23:27,000how we struggle with that.54200:23:27,000 --> 00:23:31,280So tell people, for those who maybe don't, like me, I didn't know there was a term for54300:23:31,280 --> 00:23:32,280it, but what is it?54400:23:32,280 --> 00:23:37,600Well, it's just you don't see your body as it truly is.54500:23:37,600 --> 00:23:41,600You look in the mirror and you see one thing and I look at you and I'm seeing a completely54600:23:41,600 --> 00:23:42,600different thing.54700:23:42,600 --> 00:23:47,720See, I look in the mirror and so many times, this is something I have to work on, I feel54800:23:47,720 --> 00:23:49,720like I'm 300 pounds.54900:23:49,720 --> 00:23:50,720I know.55000:23:50,720 --> 00:23:51,720It doesn't even make sense.55100:23:51,720 --> 00:23:53,920You're a tiny person.55200:23:53,920 --> 00:23:57,960But in my mind, I'm not.55300:23:57,960 --> 00:24:04,720When I see with my eyes, I mean, it's obvious that I'm not, but somehow in my mind, my mind55400:24:04,720 --> 00:24:06,360tells me I am.55500:24:06,360 --> 00:24:10,020So I have to overcome this constantly.55600:24:10,020 --> 00:24:16,920Every time I eat, every time I put on clothes, but I have to eat and I have to dress, but55700:24:16,920 --> 00:24:24,120it is something I have to, I'm not exactly sure where the origin is.55800:24:24,120 --> 00:24:28,440Well, for one, I mean, I'm a dude.55900:24:28,440 --> 00:24:33,440You're a female in the magazines, entertainment industry, culture.56000:24:33,440 --> 00:24:39,040I mean, everything screams, not just at women, it screams at all of us that we're not enough,56100:24:39,040 --> 00:24:44,640we're not pretty enough and yet they're airbrushed and fixed up and photoshopped.56200:24:44,640 --> 00:24:48,760And yet we still somehow in our mind think we should be able to live up to these images.56300:24:48,760 --> 00:24:54,600Well, I remember when I was 107 pounds and my ex-husband told me I was fat.56400:24:54,600 --> 00:24:56,680So how do you get over that?56500:24:56,680 --> 00:25:02,680107 pounds, I look at someone I could only wish, actually I don't wish to be 107, I would56600:25:02,680 --> 00:25:03,680look horrible.56700:25:03,680 --> 00:25:14,560But the problem is, is that the enemy puts those lies in your head from past statements56800:25:14,560 --> 00:25:19,640that have been made about you and it just plays and plays and plays.56900:25:19,640 --> 00:25:20,640So true.57000:25:20,640 --> 00:25:25,600I thought I was doing fine and then I don't know, it just came out of nowhere.57100:25:25,600 --> 00:25:26,600That's what's so crazy.57200:25:26,600 --> 00:25:29,220Which to me is a signal.57300:25:29,220 --> 00:25:34,440When a thought just comes out of nowhere, you have to realize there's an origin to that57400:25:34,440 --> 00:25:35,440thought.57500:25:35,440 --> 00:25:41,160So obviously something triggered it, but it came from a source other than you.57600:25:41,160 --> 00:25:46,600Well, and I also realized I'm extremely tired.57700:25:46,600 --> 00:25:51,440And think about it, we kind of let everything go.57800:25:51,440 --> 00:25:58,320We kind of let our mind just kind of go wherever when we're tired.57900:25:58,320 --> 00:26:04,920We don't think about our thoughts, which I think is important.58000:26:04,920 --> 00:26:11,880And I just feel like I'm just gearing up for Easter and just all the things we've been58100:26:11,880 --> 00:26:13,480doing in the last few weeks.58200:26:13,480 --> 00:26:18,440I mean, we were sick for a long time and then we had all the funerals and weddings and now58300:26:18,440 --> 00:26:20,600we have another wedding, our own daughter.58400:26:20,600 --> 00:26:24,000And so I feel like I am just exhausted.58500:26:24,000 --> 00:26:30,600And when you're exhausted, you just kind of allow, the enemy can be allowed to get in58600:26:30,600 --> 00:26:35,680there and speak those things that bring death and not life.58700:26:35,680 --> 00:26:36,680And I think that's what happened.58800:26:36,680 --> 00:26:41,120I think, I don't know, we've been counseling a lot of people.58900:26:41,120 --> 00:26:42,120I mean, it's been...59000:26:42,120 --> 00:26:44,080We've been meeting with a lot of people who are struggling.59100:26:44,080 --> 00:26:50,400We've done a lot of funerals where we're dealing with a lot of death and grief and heavy things.59200:26:50,400 --> 00:26:54,960And the residue of that, well, you can't help but take that on or you can't be empathetic59300:26:54,960 --> 00:26:58,560and compassionate unless you are feeling some of those things.59400:26:58,560 --> 00:26:59,560Right.59500:26:59,560 --> 00:27:00,560Because you do.59600:27:00,560 --> 00:27:04,280And if you turn it off, we wouldn't be worth anything if we turned it off.59700:27:04,280 --> 00:27:06,240We wouldn't be any good to anybody.59800:27:06,240 --> 00:27:10,120So we do tend to take those things on and we do it out of love.59900:27:10,120 --> 00:27:15,640It is a love thing, but you don't often get four or five funerals and a wedding in a couple60000:27:15,640 --> 00:27:16,640of months.60100:27:16,640 --> 00:27:17,640Exactly.60200:27:17,640 --> 00:27:23,840It's a real heightened season of a lot of emotional weight and gravity.60300:27:23,840 --> 00:27:25,840It just feels like you've been saying it in your lips.60400:27:25,840 --> 00:27:26,840So I think I need...60500:27:26,840 --> 00:27:27,840That's why I said I need some time off.60600:27:27,840 --> 00:27:29,840I literally was praying to the Lord last night.60700:27:29,840 --> 00:27:34,880I was just like, I really do need some time just...60800:27:34,880 --> 00:27:37,880Yes, to restore myself.60900:27:37,880 --> 00:27:42,840I mean, spiritually, I feel stronger than I've ever been, honestly.61000:27:42,840 --> 00:27:47,800Because on the other hand, so here's the flip side, it's been a great season.61100:27:47,800 --> 00:27:51,720We're seeing the church is growing, it's thriving, people are thriving.61200:27:51,720 --> 00:27:57,000We're making great friends and we're doing this podcast as a new thing.61300:27:57,000 --> 00:27:58,720We're engaging a lot of things.61400:27:58,720 --> 00:28:01,440We're not allowing things to come into our mind.61500:28:01,440 --> 00:28:03,800Yes, it's just been amazing.61600:28:03,800 --> 00:28:06,520Isn't that when the devil comes?61700:28:06,520 --> 00:28:07,520Go figure.61800:28:07,520 --> 00:28:08,520Always.61900:28:08,520 --> 00:28:09,520Hello.62000:28:09,520 --> 00:28:10,880It's kind of like, get a clue here.62100:28:10,880 --> 00:28:16,120So interesting because we were just talking about this and you made a comment.62200:28:16,120 --> 00:28:20,560You said, and again, for our listeners, we really want you to drill down in this with62300:28:20,560 --> 00:28:21,680us.62400:28:21,680 --> 00:28:27,680The Bible calls the devil a liar and the father of lies.62500:28:27,680 --> 00:28:32,840And Jesus says he's been a liar from the beginning because that's his nature.62600:28:32,840 --> 00:28:34,120It's his nature to lie.62700:28:34,120 --> 00:28:40,920So these things that come back at us, these echoes from the past are really from the enemy.62800:28:40,920 --> 00:28:45,200It's a strategic assault on our heart and on our mind.62900:28:45,200 --> 00:28:51,520Because if you believe a lie, you will act on it as though it's true, correct?63000:28:51,520 --> 00:28:52,520It's true.63100:28:52,520 --> 00:28:57,280So if I'm told this, and when I was in the childcare industry with these children that63200:28:57,280 --> 00:29:01,320were so abused, much of what they were up against wasn't real.63300:29:01,320 --> 00:29:07,920And it was real to them because a lie becomes real to the person.63400:29:07,920 --> 00:29:13,520You say it long enough and often enough, it becomes a reality and you begin to think it's63500:29:13,520 --> 00:29:14,520true.63600:29:14,520 --> 00:29:17,200And then once you think it's true, you act as though it is.63700:29:17,200 --> 00:29:21,320So when a child is told they're ugly, they were never wanted, they're not going to ever63800:29:21,320 --> 00:29:22,800turn out to be anything.63900:29:22,800 --> 00:29:24,120They'll never make it.64000:29:24,120 --> 00:29:28,680And they're told that over and over for the first one, two, three, four, five, six, seven,64100:29:28,680 --> 00:29:30,840eight, ten years of their life.64200:29:30,840 --> 00:29:31,960Well what do you think?64300:29:31,960 --> 00:29:36,520They start to actually act as though that's true and that it becomes a self-fulfilling64400:29:36,520 --> 00:29:37,840prophecy, correct?64500:29:37,840 --> 00:29:38,840Exactly.64600:29:38,840 --> 00:29:43,560And so what a lot of all of us, and I say us, those of us, those that are listening,64700:29:43,560 --> 00:29:46,560you and me sitting here, I don't know about Chevy, he's pretty clueless.64800:29:46,560 --> 00:29:52,720But other than that, we are constantly battling some of these thoughts and some of these lies64900:29:52,720 --> 00:29:59,280that were implanted like a tree gets transplanted into your soul and it grows roots.65000:29:59,280 --> 00:30:03,400And once it takes root, it's difficult to get out.65100:30:03,400 --> 00:30:06,480Like if you pull a tree up out in the yard right now, we won't go out with the right65200:30:06,480 --> 00:30:09,120kind of equipment and pull that thing up.65300:30:09,120 --> 00:30:13,200There'd still be a root system in the ground that could cause problems.65400:30:13,200 --> 00:30:14,600And so the same thing happens.65500:30:14,600 --> 00:30:20,520So we receive Jesus Christ, we accept his goodness in our lives, and then we begin to65600:30:20,520 --> 00:30:22,320say we're free indeed.65700:30:22,320 --> 00:30:23,920We're free in Christ.65800:30:23,920 --> 00:30:29,080And then something triggers a thought and it's like, whoa, I thought I was over that.65900:30:29,080 --> 00:30:31,440I thought Jesus healed that.66000:30:31,440 --> 00:30:32,960Here's what we've learned.66100:30:32,960 --> 00:30:38,840The real way and maybe the hard way is that healing is a process.66200:30:38,840 --> 00:30:39,840That's for sure.66300:30:39,840 --> 00:30:44,320A miracle is instantaneous, but a miracle can also be a process.66400:30:44,320 --> 00:30:54,040And so I've quit begging God for the instantaneous miracle and I now ask God and request that66500:30:54,040 --> 00:30:57,800he walk with me through these healing things.66600:30:57,800 --> 00:31:05,800So for those listening, the enemy is a liar and there's a strategy, a scheme on your life.66700:31:05,800 --> 00:31:11,840There's a strategy against you to do well, to make it, to overcome.66800:31:11,840 --> 00:31:16,320And even though already in Christ you are free, already in Christ you are healed, already66900:31:16,320 --> 00:31:21,720in Christ you are an overcomer, if the enemy can convince you that you're not, then you67000:31:21,720 --> 00:31:24,760will act like you're not even though you are.67100:31:24,760 --> 00:31:28,200And that's the enemy's goal because what he's trying to do is cancel you.67200:31:28,200 --> 00:31:30,160He wants to marginalize you.67300:31:30,160 --> 00:31:32,320He wants to ghost you.67400:31:32,320 --> 00:31:38,640He wants to do everything he can to make sure you are ineffective for the kingdom of God.67500:31:38,640 --> 00:31:42,560And so he does these surprise attacks, which is what happened to you.67600:31:42,560 --> 00:31:48,720Although you pinpointed it and realized, wait, about this time of year I get triggered.67700:31:48,720 --> 00:31:49,720That's insightful.67800:31:49,720 --> 00:31:51,440Hey, and that's a victory that you recognize.67900:31:51,440 --> 00:31:54,080Well, it's just interesting that it was a week later.68000:31:54,080 --> 00:31:55,080Yeah.68100:31:55,080 --> 00:31:59,600So that tells me, hmm, okay, maybe, you know, who knows?68200:31:59,600 --> 00:32:02,240Maybe it's maybe next year it'll be a month later.68300:32:02,240 --> 00:32:03,920Eventually it will be nothing.68400:32:03,920 --> 00:32:05,560I need it to go away.68500:32:05,560 --> 00:32:06,560I know.68600:32:06,560 --> 00:32:11,960But it's, I'm just glad I had the word to go to.68700:32:11,960 --> 00:32:14,160Let me applaud you for how you handled it.68800:32:14,160 --> 00:32:15,160Yes.68900:32:15,160 --> 00:32:18,680I could not have gotten through the night if I did not read the word.69000:32:18,680 --> 00:32:20,000Because here's the interesting thing.69100:32:20,000 --> 00:32:24,840So the timing of it, it's the night before I'm going to preach what would some would69200:32:24,840 --> 00:32:28,520say is the Super Bowl of Sundays for a pastor and a Christian.69300:32:28,520 --> 00:32:31,480So I'm, and I've already had a switcheroo.69400:32:31,480 --> 00:32:36,160So I was a little not sure footed about it because I hadn't studied all that.69500:32:36,160 --> 00:32:39,660It was, God totally threw me a different direction.69600:32:39,660 --> 00:32:44,800And then I'm, instead of focusing on that, all I can do is think about, is she okay?69700:32:44,800 --> 00:32:46,120Is she okay?69800:32:46,120 --> 00:32:49,160What a distraction that the enemy wants for you.69900:32:49,160 --> 00:32:50,160I know.70000:32:50,160 --> 00:32:51,160And we get that.70100:32:51,160 --> 00:32:53,560And it's not that you did anything wrong.70200:32:53,560 --> 00:32:59,840It's just the timing of this wave, this attack hitting you, this residue coming back up was70300:32:59,840 --> 00:33:02,840the night before one of our biggest days of the year.70400:33:02,840 --> 00:33:04,800And it turned out it was, it was a record setter.70500:33:04,800 --> 00:33:07,120It was a huge day for us.70600:33:07,120 --> 00:33:08,920And a lot of people minister too.70700:33:08,920 --> 00:33:11,680A lot of good things happened today.70800:33:11,680 --> 00:33:15,640And if you ever want to watch our messages or find out more about our church, it's called70900:33:15,640 --> 00:33:17,920Bridge Church Fredericksburg.71000:33:17,920 --> 00:33:19,920You can go to bridgefbg.com.71100:33:19,920 --> 00:33:23,040FBG stands for Fredericksburg.71200:33:23,040 --> 00:33:24,040Bridgefbg.com.71300:33:24,040 --> 00:33:26,520You can find all of our sermons there.71400:33:26,520 --> 00:33:27,880I put our daily posts there.71500:33:27,880 --> 00:33:33,520I mean, you can do that and you can actually watch the messages from this weekend because71600:33:33,520 --> 00:33:34,840here's the switcheroo that came.71700:33:34,840 --> 00:33:36,520Can I just share this?71800:33:36,520 --> 00:33:39,760Because it really fits right in with what we're talking about.71900:33:39,760 --> 00:33:48,000So at four something on Saturday morning, Friday morning, Friday morning, Saturday morning.72000:33:48,000 --> 00:33:51,080So Saturday morning I put the final polish on the message.72100:33:51,080 --> 00:33:55,400I send it over to Pastor Brian who's over our production so that he can load in the72200:33:55,400 --> 00:34:02,920scriptures into our system so that they'll show up on the screen, a pro presenter.72300:34:02,920 --> 00:34:06,840So he'll have everything we need so that I've got slides and all that.72400:34:06,840 --> 00:34:12,240He does the final build out on Saturday morning, runs up there, or early Sunday sometimes.72500:34:12,240 --> 00:34:17,920But anyway, so I knew I needed to get up and get him the final and I'd already put together72600:34:17,920 --> 00:34:20,440a bunch of stuff.72700:34:20,440 --> 00:34:23,360I was going to have to edit a lot of his way too much information.72800:34:23,360 --> 00:34:27,320Gosh, it's daunting when you start looking at Holy Week.72900:34:27,320 --> 00:34:29,880And so about four something I woke up.73000:34:29,880 --> 00:34:34,080I had this very uneasy feeling and I knew what it was.73100:34:34,080 --> 00:34:36,240I knew I was getting a curve ball.73200:34:36,240 --> 00:34:38,720It doesn't happen that often, but it does happen some.73300:34:38,720 --> 00:34:43,560But when it does, and then I go into these, oh, Annette thought I was going to do this.73400:34:43,560 --> 00:34:48,400If I do a switch and she doesn't like it, then I'm going to feel bad about it.73500:34:48,400 --> 00:34:49,400But these things happen.73600:34:49,400 --> 00:34:50,400I always like everything.73700:34:50,400 --> 00:34:53,800Well, there are times when you kind of get that questioning thing like, are you sure73800:34:53,800 --> 00:34:54,800about that?73900:34:54,800 --> 00:34:55,800And I go, trust me.74000:34:55,800 --> 00:34:57,840And then you preach and it's amazing.74100:34:57,840 --> 00:34:58,840It's the right thing.74200:34:58,840 --> 00:34:59,840Yes, exactly.74300:34:59,840 --> 00:35:04,600And I do hear his voice, not literally, but I get these impressions and leanings.74400:35:04,600 --> 00:35:09,800And so I do know when it's him trying to give me a signal.74500:35:09,800 --> 00:35:11,380And so I was trying to listen to that.74600:35:11,380 --> 00:35:16,680So I get up Saturday morning, I rebuild the whole message in a completely different direction,74700:35:16,680 --> 00:35:17,680totally different.74800:35:17,680 --> 00:35:21,840And I thought, wow, well, this will be an unusual Easter message.74900:35:21,840 --> 00:35:23,680But here's what happened.75000:35:23,680 --> 00:35:28,620I woke up in the middle of the night thinking I've did all this research and work on a message75100:35:28,620 --> 00:35:31,160that's going to scientifically wow people.75200:35:31,160 --> 00:35:34,360They're going to go, oh my gosh, the crucifixion was horrible to the human body.75300:35:34,360 --> 00:35:41,120Oh, I'm going to quote Lee Strobel, who I love as an apologist and a thinker about the75400:35:41,120 --> 00:35:42,920validity of the resurrection.75500:35:42,920 --> 00:35:48,640And it dawned on me, and I know this was the Holy Spirit, my helper, my comforter, my counselor,75600:35:48,640 --> 00:35:54,640my friend, waking me up to say, that's great, Jimmy, but you're going to miss a lot of the75700:35:54,640 --> 00:36:02,040people that I'm going to bring to the Bridge Church, literally nearly 300 more people,75800:36:02,040 --> 00:36:04,840over 300 more people than a regular Sunday.75900:36:04,840 --> 00:36:05,840Plus internet.76000:36:05,840 --> 00:36:08,960Plus the internet, you know, people that are watching online.76100:36:08,960 --> 00:36:12,760And the Lord just, again, he didn't speak literal.76200:36:12,760 --> 00:36:19,860This is my mind interpreting my feelings that he was giving me was, who's your audience?76300:36:19,860 --> 00:36:22,080And I realized, and I heard this in my heart.76400:36:22,080 --> 00:36:28,440I even said it out loud the other day, that Easter is about when Jesus told Peter and76500:36:28,440 --> 00:36:32,320the guys to cast their net on the other side of the boat.76600:36:32,320 --> 00:36:35,680They had been fishing all night and hadn't caught anything.76700:36:35,680 --> 00:36:39,140Jesus shows up and says, cast your net on the other side of the boat.76800:36:39,140 --> 00:36:43,760The impression I had was Jesus was saying to me, cast your net on the other side of76900:36:43,760 --> 00:36:44,760the boat.77000:36:44,760 --> 00:36:47,800And the way I interpreted that was, you're not going to preach what you thought you were.77100:36:47,800 --> 00:36:50,520It's going to be a completely different thing.77200:36:50,520 --> 00:36:51,840You think you need to do it over here.77300:36:51,840 --> 00:36:55,520I'm telling you, put it over here and there'll be a great catch of fish.77400:36:55,520 --> 00:36:57,640So we show up, church is packed.77500:36:57,640 --> 00:36:58,640I mean, it's crazy.77600:36:58,640 --> 00:37:00,840I mean, like, don't tell the fire department.77700:37:00,840 --> 00:37:03,280There was a lot of people there.77800:37:03,280 --> 00:37:04,640It was jammed.77900:37:04,640 --> 00:37:06,360And praise the Lord for that.78000:37:06,360 --> 00:37:11,840But I realized as I looked out in the Congress, and I went out and met a lot of people before78100:37:11,840 --> 00:37:14,440the first and second services started.78200:37:14,440 --> 00:37:17,000And as I was meeting, I knew, I knew we're from Ohio.78300:37:17,000 --> 00:37:18,000We were visiting town.78400:37:18,000 --> 00:37:21,720Or these are my friends or these are my family from another town.78500:37:21,720 --> 00:37:26,120And the Lord was saying, see, the people that are here, they need to hear.78600:37:26,120 --> 00:37:32,000They don't need another crucifix, crucifixion story that they hear every, every year.78700:37:32,000 --> 00:37:36,600They need to hear that God loves them no matter what it is.78800:37:36,600 --> 00:37:37,600I got up there.78900:37:37,600 --> 00:37:39,600On their worst day, God loves them.79000:37:39,600 --> 00:37:40,600Exactly.79100:37:40,600 --> 00:37:42,440I got up there with basically no story in mind.79200:37:42,440 --> 00:37:43,440Nothing.79300:37:43,440 --> 00:37:44,440I mean, it was bare.79400:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,360That's why you typically, I mean, you get up and you tell a story off the cuff.79500:37:48,360 --> 00:37:49,360I don't know how you do that.79600:37:49,360 --> 00:37:52,960But I think because that was such a different direction, I cast my net on the other side79700:37:52,960 --> 00:37:57,440of the boat that I did not exactly know where it was going for service.79800:37:57,440 --> 00:38:00,320And I just stepped up and trusted the Lord.79900:38:00,320 --> 00:38:01,880He's going to give me what I need to say.80000:38:01,880 --> 00:38:04,640And he did right off the bat.80100:38:04,640 --> 00:38:07,120And the word says my sheep hear my voice.80200:38:07,120 --> 00:38:09,640They know my voice.80300:38:09,640 --> 00:38:15,120So I trust God in you that he's going to lead you to preach what you need to preach.80400:38:15,120 --> 00:38:18,720I trust him to lean on me.80500:38:18,720 --> 00:38:19,720Please don't put that pressure on me.80600:38:19,720 --> 00:38:20,960I love you and I want to please you.80700:38:20,960 --> 00:38:23,800I know, but I would rather you please God than me.80800:38:23,800 --> 00:38:24,800I get that.80900:38:24,800 --> 00:38:25,800Yeah.81000:38:25,800 --> 00:38:26,800So that's what I did.81100:38:26,800 --> 00:38:33,360And I'd switch the whole thrust of the message to the brokenhearted.81200:38:33,360 --> 00:38:35,480And I did something I've never done.81300:38:35,480 --> 00:38:36,480I said, Humpty Dumpty.81400:38:36,480 --> 00:38:40,160And then I let the congregations finish it.81500:38:40,160 --> 00:38:41,160That was funny.81600:38:41,160 --> 00:38:42,920Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.81700:38:42,920 --> 00:38:45,320Do kids these days even know that story?81800:38:45,320 --> 00:38:49,920All the king's horses and all the king's men couldn't put Humpty together again.81900:38:49,920 --> 00:38:52,080So I talked about Mr. Humpty.82000:38:52,080 --> 00:38:56,320Mr. and Mrs. Dumpty and Mrs. Dumpty.82100:38:56,320 --> 00:38:57,480Because there's male and female.82200:38:57,480 --> 00:38:59,080And I said, we're all broken.82300:38:59,080 --> 00:39:00,640We all have shards.82400:39:00,640 --> 00:39:05,240We're like shards of glass, shards of ceramic pottery.82500:39:05,240 --> 00:39:09,560And then I told a story about an ancient Japanese.82600:39:09,560 --> 00:39:10,880That was powerful.82700:39:10,880 --> 00:39:12,720This is how God works.82800:39:12,720 --> 00:39:16,280I read a random, very random news article.82900:39:16,280 --> 00:39:17,800And I live randomly.83000:39:17,800 --> 00:39:20,680So it's actually not that abnormal for me.83100:39:20,680 --> 00:39:23,640But I pulled up this news article.83200:39:23,640 --> 00:39:24,640I clicked on it.83300:39:24,640 --> 00:39:29,600It was like three things that the Japanese culture do to find peace.83400:39:29,600 --> 00:39:31,400I thought, well, that's interesting randomly.83500:39:31,400 --> 00:39:32,400What do they do?83600:39:32,400 --> 00:39:40,680And one of them was this art form called kintsugi.83700:39:40,680 --> 00:39:43,360It's hard for me to say, kintsugi.83800:39:43,360 --> 00:39:45,160And so I did some research.83900:39:45,160 --> 00:39:48,800And on that, it was fascinating.84000:39:48,800 --> 00:39:54,560What they do is they take, instead of throwing away, let's say a bowl falls off the table84100:39:54,560 --> 00:39:55,560and breaks.84200:39:55,560 --> 00:39:57,560Well, normally, what would we do?84300:39:57,560 --> 00:40:00,200We would throw it in the trash if it's not salvageable.84400:40:00,200 --> 00:40:01,200Get the broom.84500:40:01,200 --> 00:40:02,200Right.84600:40:02,200 --> 00:40:03,200Get the scoop thing.84700:40:03,200 --> 00:40:04,200The Dyson.84800:40:04,200 --> 00:40:05,200The Dyson.84900:40:05,200 --> 00:40:08,820We'd go grab the Dyson and we'd just vacuum that thing up, throw it in the trash, right?85000:40:08,820 --> 00:40:10,840And never think about it again.85100:40:10,840 --> 00:40:11,840But not them.85200:40:11,840 --> 00:40:16,880They actually value the usefulness of a product or something that's made to do something.85300:40:16,880 --> 00:40:18,880They value its purpose.85400:40:18,880 --> 00:40:25,960And so centuries ago, an emperor, a Japanese emperor, had a very valuable rare pot.85500:40:25,960 --> 00:40:26,960It fell over.85600:40:26,960 --> 00:40:28,560It broke.85700:40:28,560 --> 00:40:34,680And so he sent out throughout the land wanting to get another one because it was rare, but85800:40:34,680 --> 00:40:37,480there were others made and they could not find one.85900:40:37,480 --> 00:40:42,360And so some artisans and those who worked in ceramics and pottery came and said, let86000:40:42,360 --> 00:40:44,000us take it.86100:40:44,000 --> 00:40:45,320Let us see what we can do.86200:40:45,320 --> 00:40:46,720So he did.86300:40:46,720 --> 00:40:51,800And when they brought it back, it was stunning because what they did is they took lacquer86400:40:51,800 --> 00:41:00,480and gold dust and they meticulously reassembled this vase or this piece of pottery.86500:41:00,480 --> 00:41:04,220And it actually was more beautiful when they returned it.86600:41:04,220 --> 00:41:05,220And it was more beautiful.86700:41:05,220 --> 00:41:06,220More valuable.86800:41:06,220 --> 00:41:09,480It was more valuable because of the gold dust.86900:41:09,480 --> 00:41:14,600But it meant more to the emperor afterwards because he could see the cracks and the scars87000:41:14,600 --> 00:41:16,280and the imperfections.87100:41:16,280 --> 00:41:19,600But they made those imperfections beautiful.87200:41:19,600 --> 00:41:23,160And that began a trend where other people began to do that.87300:41:23,160 --> 00:41:31,360And now you walk into any Japanese restaurant or you're in a museum, you'll see these beautiful87400:41:31,360 --> 00:41:33,760works and they're beautiful.87500:41:33,760 --> 00:41:37,880But they're actually birthed out of brokenness.87600:41:37,880 --> 00:41:41,880And so then the article I read had nothing to do with Jesus.87700:41:41,880 --> 00:41:44,120It was all about the Japanese culture.87800:41:44,120 --> 00:41:48,720But I thought to myself, this is exactly what God has done in my life.87900:41:48,720 --> 00:41:51,040This is what Jesus does for us.88000:41:51,040 --> 00:41:57,280He takes these broken pieces and instead of discarding them, he actually scoops them up88100:41:57,280 --> 00:41:59,380and he puts them back together again.88200:41:59,380 --> 00:42:02,200And they're better and more valuable afterwards.88300:42:02,200 --> 00:42:04,120They become works of art.88400:42:04,120 --> 00:42:05,680I want to just share a scripture.88500:42:05,680 --> 00:42:11,360In fact, you even mentioned you got right there and I thought, oh, this is that.88600:42:11,360 --> 00:42:12,360So let me just share this.88700:42:12,360 --> 00:42:18,160For those of you who maybe feel like you're broken, maybe you feel like you're shards88800:42:18,160 --> 00:42:24,360of pottery on the ground and somebody's about to come scoop you up and toss you out, this88900:42:24,360 --> 00:42:28,880scripture came to my mind, Ephesians chapter two, verses eight through 10.89000:42:28,880 --> 00:42:29,880For it is by grace.89100:42:29,880 --> 00:42:32,040I love that word.89200:42:32,040 --> 00:42:37,320For it is by grace you have been saved through faith and this not from yourselves.89300:42:37,320 --> 00:42:41,880It is the gift of God, God's gift of grace.89400:42:41,880 --> 00:42:45,040And it says this, not by works so that no one can boast.89500:42:45,040 --> 00:42:47,020Now listen to this, verse 10.89600:42:47,020 --> 00:42:52,620This is where that metaphor collided with my theology.89700:42:52,620 --> 00:43:01,040For we are God's workmanship created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God has prepared89800:43:01,040 --> 00:43:02,680in advance for us to do.89900:43:02,680 --> 00:43:09,040In other words, God designed us to do these amazing things, but we are broken.90000:43:04,360 --> 00:43:19,360Oh my God.90100:43:09,040 --> 00:43:10,040Everyone is broken.90200:43:10,040 --> 00:43:11,040Everyone.90300:43:11,040 --> 00:43:13,240Everyone listening to this podcast is broken.90400:43:13,240 --> 00:43:16,120There are chinks in our armor.90500:43:19,360 --> 00:43:21,360Or Home Depot or something.90600:43:21,360 --> 00:43:23,960It got the scratch and dent section.90700:43:23,960 --> 00:43:29,920It's a bunch of stuff that got beat up in shipping and it's dented and it's lost value90800:43:29,920 --> 00:43:32,400according to the consumer.90900:43:32,400 --> 00:43:35,360And yet when we put it back to work, it works.91000:43:35,360 --> 00:43:42,200But I love the whole idea of Kitsumi that God can take these broken things and put them91100:43:42,200 --> 00:43:47,480back together with gold, with grace, with mercy, with his love.91200:43:47,480 --> 00:43:53,240Put us back together again to where now we become what the scripture says.91300:43:53,240 --> 00:43:59,200So that we are God's workmanship and that word workmanship means a work in progress.91400:43:59,200 --> 00:44:03,320It's what a craftsman or an artisan does with beautiful things.91500:44:03,320 --> 00:44:08,040They work with things and create something that's a work of art and that's beautiful.91600:44:08,040 --> 00:44:10,160And that's what we are in Christ.91700:44:10,160 --> 00:44:13,160And I share that message and that's the message the Lord gave me.91800:44:13,160 --> 00:44:18,520Of course, I use Peter as a great example of how three times he denied Christ and then91900:44:18,520 --> 00:44:20,560Christ three times restored him.92000:44:20,560 --> 00:44:22,840And just a beautiful moment there.92100:44:22,840 --> 00:44:28,040And then we called for people to come forward and give their hearts to Christ.92200:44:28,040 --> 00:44:29,560And we had a lot of people to front.92300:44:29,560 --> 00:44:32,560It was just a beautiful, beautiful day.92400:44:32,560 --> 00:44:38,280But I've learned something new and Kitsumi will always be an image in my mind of something92500:44:38,280 --> 00:44:40,720that was broken that God made beautiful.92600:44:40,720 --> 00:44:43,720And then that line of the song came to me.92700:44:43,720 --> 00:44:50,460What people or what we call broken, what we see is broken, God sees beautiful.92800:44:50,460 --> 00:44:53,040We see broken, God sees beautiful.92900:44:53,040 --> 00:44:55,400And so anyway, that was the thrust of it all.93000:44:55,400 --> 00:44:59,520So Annette, what did that speak to you?93100:44:59,520 --> 00:45:03,240You said that that really hit you because that wasn't where you thought it was going93200:45:03,240 --> 00:45:04,240with the message.93300:45:04,240 --> 00:45:08,360Do you remember that song we used to sing about being refined as gold?93400:45:08,360 --> 00:45:09,360Oh yeah.93500:45:09,360 --> 00:45:10,360What was it called?93600:45:10,360 --> 00:45:11,360Refiners Fire, I think.93700:45:11,360 --> 00:45:12,360That was a classic.93800:45:12,360 --> 00:45:13,840Oh, it's called Gold.93900:45:13,840 --> 00:45:15,520Gold, it sure was.94000:45:15,520 --> 00:45:16,520It's called Gold.94100:45:16,520 --> 00:45:17,520It was a beautiful song.94200:45:17,520 --> 00:45:18,520Beautiful worship song.94300:45:18,520 --> 00:45:19,520I wish we had that song playing.94400:45:19,520 --> 00:45:22,320It's powerful.94500:45:22,320 --> 00:45:28,160In Zechariah 13, he says, I will refine them as silver is refined and test them as gold94600:45:28,160 --> 00:45:29,160is tested.94700:45:29,160 --> 00:45:31,920They will call on my name and I will answer them.94800:45:31,920 --> 00:45:34,600I will say, this is my people.94900:45:34,600 --> 00:45:37,760And each one will say, the Lord is my God.95000:45:37,760 --> 00:45:38,760Wow.95100:45:38,760 --> 00:45:39,760See, he refines us.95200:45:39,760 --> 00:45:40,760He refines us.95300:45:40,760 --> 00:45:43,960It purifies like the finest gold.95400:45:43,960 --> 00:45:46,520And so that was going through my mind.95500:45:46,520 --> 00:45:49,560I was like, wow, he's just refining us.95600:45:49,560 --> 00:45:55,160And we're always going to be refined until we meet him face to face, in person.95700:45:55,160 --> 00:45:57,800And then it will be complete.95800:45:57,800 --> 00:46:00,480I think we live in a fallen world.95900:46:00,480 --> 00:46:05,360So we sort of sometimes have this fairy tale that one day I'm going to reach a place in96000:46:05,360 --> 00:46:09,640life where there'll be no more pain, where there'll be no more discomfort.96100:46:09,640 --> 00:46:14,720That means I need to work harder, make more money, invest more, have a bigger retirement.96200:46:14,720 --> 00:46:20,200So we think we try to build in all these safeguards just in case.96300:46:20,200 --> 00:46:25,800And at some point you have to realize we live in a broken world and broken things break96400:46:25,800 --> 00:46:27,600other things.96500:46:27,600 --> 00:46:32,080We always say broken people break people, hurt people hurt people.96600:46:32,080 --> 00:46:37,260But broken, when you live in a broken world, the broken world is going to break people.96700:46:37,260 --> 00:46:38,260It's going to break us.96800:46:38,260 --> 00:46:44,200It's going to chip things off and dent us and hit us and hurt us.96900:46:44,200 --> 00:46:45,920It's not a fatalistic viewpoint.97000:46:45,920 --> 00:46:50,760It's not like I live thinking, oh yeah, well, just waiting for the next shoe to drop.97100:46:50,760 --> 00:46:55,640But there is a sense in which we realize that life is not fair and that we live in a broken97200:46:55,640 --> 00:46:57,680world and things happen.97300:46:57,680 --> 00:46:58,680And we do.97400:46:58,680 --> 00:47:04,240But the beauty of it is, is that we now have, you used the word of God when you were struggling97500:47:04,240 --> 00:47:08,000in your brokenness yesterday, last night.97600:47:08,000 --> 00:47:09,880You went to the source of life.97700:47:09,880 --> 00:47:11,080You went to the word of God.97800:47:11,080 --> 00:47:14,800You went to the Bible and you read the scripture.97900:47:14,800 --> 00:47:16,000What did it do?98000:47:16,000 --> 00:47:21,960It built me up, gave me peace, gave me rest.98100:47:21,960 --> 00:47:24,240I was able to go to sleep and sleep well.98200:47:24,240 --> 00:47:27,440It put you back together again like lacquer and gold.98300:47:27,440 --> 00:47:28,440Exactly.98400:47:28,440 --> 00:47:29,440Exactly.98500:47:29,440 --> 00:47:30,440Well, I think you're beautiful.98600:47:30,440 --> 00:47:31,440Thank you.98700:47:31,440 --> 00:47:32,440Yeah.98800:47:32,440 --> 00:47:33,440You're a beautiful work of art.98900:47:33,440 --> 00:47:35,280You're His workmanship.99000:47:35,280 --> 00:47:36,280And so are you.99100:47:36,280 --> 00:47:39,800Those of you that are listening, you are God's workmanship.99200:47:39,800 --> 00:47:43,160You're God's masterpiece that He's working on and building.99300:47:43,160 --> 00:47:44,920And we want you to be encouraged.99400:47:44,920 --> 00:47:49,240We call this podcast, Living Up in a Down World for a Reason, because it is a broken99500:47:49,240 --> 00:47:57,600world and we're trying to learn and grow and get tools in our tool belt that will help99600:47:57,600 --> 00:48:00,600us live this life as we should.99700:48:00,600 --> 00:48:04,080And so any final thoughts Annette before we sign off today?99800:48:04,080 --> 00:48:07,880No, I think I've said quite a bit.99900:48:07,880 --> 00:48:14,160I'm excited to see what God's going to do through this and how He's going to continue100000:48:14,160 --> 00:48:17,840to lead me through this because it's not over.100100:48:17,840 --> 00:48:18,840It's a journey.100200:48:18,840 --> 00:48:20,960Because we're still living on this fallen earth.100300:48:20,960 --> 00:48:21,960It's a journey.100400:48:21,960 --> 00:48:24,000And so it is not over.100500:48:24,000 --> 00:48:26,240Always think of the show, the movie, What About Bob?100600:48:26,240 --> 00:48:28,760Oh my goodness, you would think of that one.100700:48:28,760 --> 00:48:31,520Baby steps to the door, baby steps to the street.100800:48:31,520 --> 00:48:32,520Baby steps.100900:48:32,520 --> 00:48:34,240Listen, we love you guys.101000:48:34,240 --> 00:48:40,200I got to give a shout out and a big thanks to Adam Curry and Tina.101100:48:40,200 --> 00:48:41,560Super excited for Adam.101200:48:41,560 --> 00:48:42,960We got to talk about this for a minute.101300:48:42,960 --> 00:48:44,960Oh, he's getting baptized on Wednesday.101400:48:44,960 --> 00:48:45,960He's getting baptized on Wednesday night.101500:48:45,960 --> 00:48:47,760Oh, Tina was a mess today.101600:48:47,760 --> 00:48:52,000She said his baptism is affecting her more than her own.101700:48:52,000 --> 00:48:53,000Oh, wow.101800:48:53,000 --> 00:48:55,560And she is really looking forward to it.101900:48:55,560 --> 00:48:57,040It's going to be beautiful.102000:48:57,040 --> 00:48:58,040He's so excited.102100:48:58,040 --> 00:49:02,400I mean, we were out to the movie and dinner with them yesterday and then they stopped.102200:49:02,400 --> 00:49:09,360We hung out here at the house and his excitement, his exuberance just is so life giving.102300:49:09,360 --> 00:49:11,400It's going to be a beautiful, beautiful thing.102400:49:11,400 --> 00:49:14,480And I have the honor of getting to baptize my brother in Christ.102500:49:14,480 --> 00:49:19,000And so we talked that through a little bit and we're having a night of worship, which102600:49:19,000 --> 00:49:20,000is going to be super awesome.102700:49:20,000 --> 00:49:21,880It's all streamed so you can watch.102800:49:21,880 --> 00:49:22,880Yeah.102900:49:22,880 --> 00:49:26,600So if you want to watch Adam Curry get baptized and several other, we got lots of folks getting103000:49:26,600 --> 00:49:35,800baptized, you can go to, well, you can go to our website, which is bridgefbg.com and103100:49:35,800 --> 00:49:37,800it'll be live streamed there.103200:49:37,800 --> 00:49:40,840It's also live streamed on YouTube.103300:49:40,840 --> 00:49:46,720And that's you just go to YouTube and you do a search for Fredericksburg Bridge Church,103400:49:46,720 --> 00:49:49,280Fredericksburg, Texas.103500:49:49,280 --> 00:49:51,760There's a bridge church in Fredericksburg, Virginia.103600:49:51,760 --> 00:49:52,760That's not us.103700:49:52,760 --> 00:49:54,360So yeah, we have our own channel there.103800:49:54,360 --> 00:49:55,360So you can find that.103900:49:55,360 --> 00:49:57,240It'll be live streamed there.104000:49:57,240 --> 00:50:02,960It's also live streamed on Facebook, but Facebook is just being nerdy about some things.104100:50:02,960 --> 00:50:09,080They messed our live stream up today because of a, what they call it, some kind of a new104200:50:09,080 --> 00:50:12,320update they sent out and totally jacked us up.104300:50:12,320 --> 00:50:14,120But yeah, we keep having a little...104400:50:14,120 --> 00:50:15,120Not a fan.104500:50:15,120 --> 00:50:16,120Not a fan.104600:50:16,120 --> 00:50:18,120So anyway, go, so watch Adam.104700:50:18,120 --> 00:50:19,400And what's the night of worship?104800:50:19,400 --> 00:50:23,320It's going to, our worship team, we're going to be cranking it up and playing and just104900:50:23,320 --> 00:50:25,120worshiping God and freedom.105000:50:25,120 --> 00:50:29,840It's just a wonderful night of celebration, kind of an Easter afterglow.105100:50:29,840 --> 00:50:31,880And the baptism waters will be warm.105200:50:31,880 --> 00:50:33,240We're going to see people get baptized.105300:50:33,240 --> 00:50:35,440It's going to be a sweet time.105400:50:35,440 --> 00:50:41,560And also just always want to say big thanks to you that have been checking out our website.105500:50:41,560 --> 00:50:45,680Several of you have been writing in, sharing your testimonies, asking questions.105600:50:45,680 --> 00:50:47,780And we always encourage that.105700:50:47,780 --> 00:50:52,040You can find us at livingupinadownworld.com.105800:50:52,040 --> 00:50:53,220And you can write us.105900:50:53,220 --> 00:50:55,120You can do comments on the show.106000:50:55,120 --> 00:50:57,000You can listen to the show there.106100:50:57,000 --> 00:50:59,720But we also would encourage you to check out Fountain.106200:50:59,720 --> 00:51:06,000Fountain is a great platform where you can participate in value for value.106300:51:06,000 --> 00:51:12,040And when you hear something you like, you can actually encourage us by bumping us, boosting106400:51:12,040 --> 00:51:15,880us, they call it boostograms and send us satoshis.106500:51:15,880 --> 00:51:19,220Even by listening to the app, you actually make money.106600:51:19,220 --> 00:51:21,720You make Bitcoin.106700:51:21,720 --> 00:51:24,400You can earn it literally just by listening.106800:51:24,400 --> 00:51:27,000And so anyway, we appreciate your help in that.106900:51:27,000 --> 00:51:32,600And those of you that have been boosting us and encouraging us on Fountain and Cast-O-Matic107000:51:32,600 --> 00:51:39,360and other value for value platforms, Podcast 2.0, thank you so much.107100:51:39,360 --> 00:51:40,720And we just love you.107200:51:40,720 --> 00:51:42,640We're doing this as a labor of love.107300:51:42,640 --> 00:51:46,640We're doing it because we care about you, about what you're going through.107400:51:46,640 --> 00:51:51,200But we care about you because we want to see you grow in your faith life and on your faith107500:51:51,200 --> 00:51:52,200journey.107600:51:52,200 --> 00:51:53,200So do write us.107700:51:53,200 --> 00:51:54,960Let us know you're listening.107800:51:54,960 --> 00:51:55,960Send questions.107900:51:55,960 --> 00:51:57,200Send comments.108000:51:57,200 --> 00:51:58,920We love hearing from you.108100:51:58,920 --> 00:52:00,440We'll always get back with you.108200:52:00,440 --> 00:52:01,840Annette, any final word?108300:52:01,840 --> 00:52:05,280Well, I just want to make sure that everybody knows.108400:52:05,280 --> 00:52:08,280Please listen to Curry and the Keeper if you want a good laugh.108500:52:08,280 --> 00:52:09,280There you go.108600:52:09,280 --> 00:52:14,240I'm excited that they're going to have their podcast this week because I need a really108700:52:14,240 --> 00:52:15,240good laugh.108800:52:15,240 --> 00:52:16,240There you go.108900:52:16,240 --> 00:52:18,880And that, it's just, it's beautiful.109000:52:18,880 --> 00:52:20,440It's funny.109100:52:20,440 --> 00:52:21,440It's enlightening.109200:52:21,440 --> 00:52:24,080It's just, it's a great, great show.109300:52:24,080 --> 00:52:25,080Fantastic.109400:52:25,080 --> 00:52:26,080curryandthekeeper.com.109500:52:26,080 --> 00:52:29,400You can also get Find Among Fountains as well.109600:52:29,400 --> 00:52:30,400Same platform.109700:52:30,400 --> 00:52:31,400All right.109800:52:31,400 --> 00:52:32,520Much love to all of you.109900:52:32,520 --> 00:52:34,600We want you to live up in a down world.110000:52:34,600 --> 00:52:35,600That is our challenge.110100:52:35,600 --> 00:52:36,600That's our excitement.110200:52:36,600 --> 00:52:37,600And that is our glory.110300:52:37,600 --> 00:52:38,600And for you, we are pulling for you.110400:52:38,600 --> 00:52:39,600You can do this.110500:52:39,600 --> 00:52:40,600You've got this.110600:52:40,600 --> 00:52:41,600Better yet, God's got you.110700:52:41,600 --> 00:52:42,600God bless.110800:52:42,600 --> 00:52:51,720Until next week.